Feels great to be back!

So its been day 4 since i have been back to fully counting my calories with the one free day a week and one non workout day as well. It has been wonderful and great to not have to feel guilty if i eat something i shouldnt have. that free day has def openned up a window of relief to not cheat during the week! I cant wait to get into the gym today again today. though the day off was really needed due to my sorness from my change in workouts! I am biking 6 days a week and running two days a week now. I was running 5 days a week but i am trying to give my body a 2 week window of just a few days a week to see what it will do to my weight loss. I must say that these last few lbs to lose have been the hardest ever. I fear failure though so that in its self has kept me pushing myself to no end. The biking is doing something wonderful to my leg muscles. i cant believe the difference in just a few days already the shape is unreal. So i will post more later today to this after my shift ends and i get my workouts in..
I will be kid free :-( sad sad sad...

Wow....

So Today I find myself struggling with so many things. First being that i am having a hard time balancing the kids sports with my new work schedule! i work 4-midnite 2 nites a week and during those two nights a week of course pj has basketball practice. I cant keep it up. Finding him a ride each day of basketball when i dont know anyone really in this town. My only good friend besides Danielle is moving out of town in March. My other two close friends just moved last week. I am struggling to maintain a happiness with my job here. It seems like though my boss is amazing its a struggle to keep up with good help here. The strickter the rules get for us all here as well when they dont seem to have exact order. Jons boss said i am welcome to work there and i finaly have come to the thought of taking it. I am sure it may be i hope abit easier to juggle the kids sports with us both being at the same job. dot dot dot.. crossed fingers!
I am now at 146lbs but i seem to keep putting myself right back up to 150 because i eat bad workout and repeat. Whats up with me? i think i am letting the stress eat away at me again. Its been so hard juggling the kids, sports, work and my health as well. It has become an over load to me! MY current job has been a wonderful experince for me, and Vicky is who i will miss the most. I fear telling her out of the fact its going to put her into a pickle but i need to do whats best for me and where i belong. I hope my hubby truly helps me get my schooling set up for september. I cant wait. well i need to find a running partner my age to keep me in gear. I do my first 10 run in march and my first half marathon in April.. woot woot.. i cant wait! well off for now i will write more laters!