Grrrrrrr..... i need some sunshine and no more gray

I sit here tired, worn out feeling why i am not sure. my weight loss is at a stand still and i feel so very drained i don't know exactly what that means but i can tell you my head feels as if its in a cloud or something and my poor eyes just want to close on shut. I am frustrated at my stand still with my body but yet again i have not really had much of that since i began this battle back in January so i couldn't really complain. I am thinking on taking a break from the gym but, scared to death that if i do i will just gain massive weight and end up back where i started oh so long ago. I have decided its many factors that lead up to it. I am in an area i am not use to, not use to the weather, my lack of family here, the stress of moving, of figuring out all the bills. Of adjusting to a new work schedule, a new gym and a missing workout buddy. The cloudy gray weather is making me down, is adding to the i am not doing good enough for my body. I feel lost, not in my normal enviorment or self? I know in time after the stress is gone, i get into my own schedule again, and i have my loved ones it will get better but, that doesn't take away my fear. Fear of failure, fear of losing control again over my eating, fear of losing who i have found, fear of not reaching my goal that is so not far way from here.. I only have 33lbs to go and i will be out of the losing battle and onto the maintaining.. If what they say is really true that maintaining is the hardest part should i be scared? or what? I want to do nothing more then sleep seriously that's all my eyes want to do. I am sleeping about 5.5-6 hours a day and on the weekends even more then that. I start my shift at midnight and get off at 8am.. trying to move my life around things have been difficult but, in the end i know its worth the battle i am ready for the change that's coming i just seriously wish my husband and kids where here. I feel so very ,lonely without them. I feel like i am not doing my motherly duties because i am working a job that's 200 miles away from them. I am missing out on their last weeks of school with their friends that will soon be miles away from them. I have a house full of shit to pack up and haul the freaking 200 miles to our new home. I am worried about my hubby finding a job its something that makes me get that sick kinda feeling in my stomach with worry that i want to just puke my guts out.
The few great factors of my move are these..
I LOVE MY NEW JOB... its something for the first time in forever that i can see myself working up in.
I AM CLOSER TO MY BEST FRIENDS.... whom i have needed so very much. its been a nice thing to have them back into the daily events of my life!
I have got to get out of this Freaking Depression that's whats getting a hold of me again. that and stress ugh someone please tell me i am going to make it through this all, that my body will still be the same as it is now or better? i fear gaining my weight so badly that, that too might be what has put my body at a stand still!so here is whats on my mind, in my thoughts and in my gut feelings..if any one person can shed some light please please do...