Fighting Back ( It's about Damn Time)

So Today i woke up thinking to myself What The HELL is wrong with me? I have worked so hard, pushed so hard to get to this body why the hell would i go and mess it up? There is no need to be not watching what i put into my body just because my current schedule and moving does not allow me time for the gym. That's enough of that bull poop from me. I am going to take the kids to the park or on a walk alone the ocean. Any activity is better then non right? Though with money and time my eating is limited i can still calculate whats what and how much is to much.. I have let myself gain almost 3lbs this last few weeks slowly because i gave into the temptation of that Gosh Dang Depression What the" F" That was the old me and i let her go long ago.So back to the sunshine and roses life is too short to let bad choices become a habit. THANKS CAT FOR YOUR COMMENT. you might not know it but, it slapped my A** right back into reality that i am proud of you poured the guilt on me and said wake up. I so needed that you saved my moment, my lack of respect for myself and lack of control on my current living status let me think i could just not care nope i can and i will..
I love the new me! She is proud, bold, confident, I feel gorgeous and sexy for the first time in my life and i am so close to that swim suit body so shut up Gosh Dang Depression you have no Control over me so Get Lost and Find someone else to bother! I am now fully armed and ready for my day. I am off for some shopping today, a good jog sounds well i know the perfect park with steep hills to jog and walk while the kids play on the toys :)! 2 more weeks and life will be back to normal, back to my cooking, my eating habits, my life will be back in order with a hubby in my bed i cant wait for that normal again. Its funny how the normal, the comfort it provides is so much better then the lesser of normal lol. I am suppose to be a role model, a leader and what am i showing others if i let this being out of whack shit through me for a loop? i guess that i am Human but, that's just it i am not i am a Ray of Sunshine for the Lost and i aim to help others reach their goals to. Its so able to be met i promise. Everyone thinks i am crazy and abit obsessed about my working out and watching what i eat Well This is Exactly Why.. If i let myself go i don't stop because i have yet to be able to be free and control my old habits.. So listen up better to be obsessed about healthy habits then something else such as SHOES! So lets find me some workouts and some living smart books cause i am in this world to shake it up, loosen those old habit strings and make a better path for my kids, family, and friends than i myself was ever taught.
so off for my book work with the new look of my day and ready for whatever the day holds.. I am much stronger then at times i let myself think and i will beat this Gosh Dang thing no matter how hard it hits back i will win this fight because its the only answer to my self.. the only love one can give others is the love and respect that first starts with in!
Hugs and Cheers to Everyone on their Journey in life.. Lets shake it up and know that at the end of life we truly did Live!