Missin Em!

So I keep avoiding writing down my feelings in hopes that they settle or calm abit. Things in my life are great, money is okay, my hubby is my dream, my babies are growing big and strong but, my sadness is this, My best friend has moved away. WE have known each other since she was the age of 5 and forever we have hung out. As i grew and she did high school came we lost each other for abit and than about 4-5 yrs ago i found her on myspace and within a few months she moved up by us and we have been inseparable ever since. Their family is our Family and ours is theirs. We have holidays together, birthdays, summer days and winter fun its all always together. So i sit here and stare at the empty house across my street wishing they where driving out of their drive way! Some are never lucky enough to have found a great friend, a person to lean or let go with. A person to be truly yourself and know they wont walk away. I found those people one along time ago and the other joined the crowd when she moved up and he is just as much my best friend as she now! My heart truly Aches for them and i am bound and determined to find a good job out by them when moving time comes. When i was young my childhood was not great and neither was hers we became each others leaning posts and spent our moments as children making sun tea, watching movies, eating top ramen and running around the neighbor hood. I will never forget the Big Snow ball we Rolled down our street it was taller than us and we didn't back than get many winter snow days in Vancouver. It started out with just us rolling it than all the neighbor hood kids helped and it become HUGE! Now even as adults we still do those silly little things but, with adult humor. Sledding lol we have done some pretty crazy tricks like 4 or 3 people on one Big inner tube plowing down a snow packed hill yes it was all adults on one tube! Or summer boating where we just anchor, jump off swim and have a picnic lol.. Crazy 4th of July's and wild parties.. Sleep overs where we watch movies and play board games yes we truly had sleep overs God i miss them! So even though my family is here i am empty does that makes sense? In a great world where everything turns out okay this would happen.

1. we would find great jobs at the coast
2. The store sells so we can move
3. we find a house and have a huge as party that we Finlay got down there!

So i tightly keep my fingers crossed and hope everyday that soon we will all be able to hang out again.. I wouldn't be Yaya without them. They gave me this name no one else and its seems empty without them saying it! It started out with her youngest Levi he was about 2yrs old and he couldn't say Sarah so it came out as Yaya and from that point on everyone called me Yaya i was no long Sarah but their Yaya i miss my boys lol any who thats whats on my mind today. If you find a good friend hold on for dear life because they are often very hard to come by!