Fighting With Myself!

Okay i have to write, i have to vent i have to deal with it all out on paper today now, not yesterday not tomorrow not tonight but right now! I am tired of being Depressed I am Tired of letting that Depression get at me and bring me down! I am better than it, I am going to reach my weight goal, i am going to push as hard as my body can humanly handle it, and mentally handle it! I will reach my goal by the end of the year, i will be healthier, happier and living a better life style. Often at times When people get depressed the world slows down and becomes a very gray dark place, We let all those bottled up emotions take over and push us further and further away from the love in our life, the joy, the things to be thankful for, the laughter, our children, our jobs, our hearts and i am not going to let it keep ruling over my life. I know things are stressful and things are falling apart fast financially but, its not the end of the world sometimes it gets darker before the rainbow but, the rainbow comes it always does. Its a promise of safety and i vouch that it will come! I sit here writing about my own pity self about my small problems when there are so many more who's problems are way worse than my own. I Seek comfort in knowing that i am going to make it whether its rain or shine in my life. I wont live it in the darkness any more!
So today is a day of Rainbows the Darkness is in the shadows and lets keep on fighting to keep it there.. I am going to workout in a bit and i know that will help force that darkness even further away!