My daily Events of Yesterday and where it ended up!

So lets start out with the good highlights of yesterday morning and go from there..
Its snowed it so beautiful i finally feel like its the Christmas season, i woke up early walked out for abit in the winter weather, had a warm cup of coffee and made my family breakfast. We all laughed and were happy because the snow meant day time fun! We got all bundled up in our snow gear ( snow pants, winter jackets, insulated gloves and sleds in hand) What a day we had ahead of us in the 4 degree weather up on the pass lol.. Our first adventure making sure the 4wheel drive still works and oh yeah baby she does and climbs that mt side with ease, watching the snow pile up on the branches, and the weight weighing them down and they give to the winter weather, driving in un touched surroundings, watching the birds try to get warm, i couldn't wait to jump out of the truck and throw a mean packed snow ball! Watching my children laugh, play and enjoy it is worth anything i could ever imagine! So we all hit the un touched snow hills with our sleds and snow boards in hand and well yea sweet old yaya she ended up in fir tree head first blinded by the new powder that hit my eyes, i am thinking next time i should remember the snow goggles lmao! after much fun there we decided to hit a much more kid friendly spot for the kids at Brooks Snow park!
Upon arriving the freshly packed snow on our sledding hill is deep and smooth waiting for us to hit the run woot woot.. haha i took myself up and down that hill for at least two hours. Watching my kids go down the steep hill and over the jump they catch air and sled right past our feet to the powdery end haha it was more fun the my whole month wrapped up in one! WE get our self an early dinner at Subway , go home watch a movie and have some warm hot coco with marsh mellows! Enjoyed good friends Company and so on..Get the kids all tucked in the xmas lights up and running and enjoy the warmth from the wood stove in the living room!
So my day was wonderful, i felt loved, happy comfort in knowing all who i loved was safe n sound and headed myself off for nite nite..

as i lay there my head starts turning and i cant sleep, i sit think to myself how hard i had worked all year long last year to get my weight off to be fitter than i had been, now look at me i am again working on the same weight i had taken off last year why??? i ask myself because i had gotten lazy, and not made time for me, let myself go because of the business of our lives and told myself it was okay. i was stupid and i have to work twice as hard to make myself get there to my goal. First one be under 200 lbs by the end of year i think its do able and more than that i know i can get past that first goal but, i hate how long it truly takes. I have to remind myself daily that i am a good person, that i am pretty, that i am loved and doing better for my body in the long run but, i still have those down days where i hate they way i look. I know all of us women do we have days where we wonder how we let ourselves get to the spot we are in now! I hate that i was silly and naive to letting my body go as i became a woman. i stopped caring about me when i was 21 happily married, baby on the way and i knew that he loved me no matter what. I guess that put a security there so i didn't care, i didn't try to be healthy or look my best i let myself slide and get way way out of shape and now i have to work my ass off and find me again! I am ready for my workout today, i ready for tomorrow , and every day after that knowing i am working that hard to make myself live that much longer to enjoy my babies. Other thoughts entered my head from there of how this city misses the city but, is going to badly miss the winter weather i love.. Its my season, my joy , my laughter i love it all. The bundled up kids, the frosty leaves, the ice cycles hanging from the branches, the smell of the wood stove and the cuddling to recover from our cold weather.. That i will miss but, i am going to make sure i have a yearly snow pass for the mt. or else we cant move! I know that moving is the best thing for us, i am tired of driving 30 miles to do my grocery shopping or 100 miles to see my friends and in laws..
My night time thinking ended in wishing for more snow, that my kids have the day off school to enjoy it and that i too cant wait to throw my next Snow ball..