Feelings

Patients, its something that sometimes we don't realize what it means. I hurt my husband, I hurt his heart. I keep telling myself in time it will heal our hearts are amazingly strong! I fear though that even though the heart will heal his trust will never be regained that's my question can it?
I watch him lay awake at night with questions racing through his mind, i see doubt in his eyes at times and it hurts to know i have let him down! I see his doubt in his actions! I broke him i made him incomplete.. i know he says he is going to be okay and that i complete him but, i know i have done something that is and well forever hang over my head our heads. last night i woke to him yet again not sleeping wide awake with questions and fears, he comes back to bed and just starts to shed tears of hating our jobs because of the time it takes away from us. I think he fears there is still a chance he could lose me but, i am not going anywhere he is what completes me.. what makes my heart beat my skip in day my smile ...
I love you Jon I am sorry for hurting for you, for making you feel insecure in us, for putting doubt in your eyes.. I hope we can push past this, that in time we both heal and our hearts beat as one! Nothing i do or say will make it better but, time and trust. The bond i hold with you is like no other i have with anyone in this world. My family they never truly taught me love, i found it when i found you. The day we met and you chased me around i knew you where a keeper and you still are... Thank you for loving me. please help put your doubt to rest..

forever yours...Sarah