Children Show Us Who To Be!

Its funny as we become grown ups our lives change, things become serious, funny stuff is adult humor and those childhood moments are no more! We went to a friends house for a BBQ and fun times. As we were sitting on the coach visiting our kids were preforming plays they had created lol it was the best to watch them sing, dance, joke around laugh those moments are the ones you hold on dearly to! I will never forget them and i am thankful they are able to be free spirited children with good imaginations and dreams! Seeing them smile, and do there thing makes me realize i am doing my job good! WE often judge ourselves and are harsh on our parenting so many of us don't want to make the same mistakes our parents did or raise our kids better than the life we had. That was my prim goal as a mother to give them more love, more laughter and joy than i had as child! I see now i am different than my mother and my father, for a long time i swore i was them, doing a poor job and letting them rule over how i was doing it. One day i just got fed up i moved 100 miles away and decided i am who decides what is and who is in their life no one else! Sometimes its the best part of growing to move away and see what we are really made of! Who we are how independent we can truly be! i use to depend on my grandmother for everything she was and still is my rock in life! Often times we forget how to be our own person and its those times that we feel the most lost because we have let go of who we are! Needing help does not mean we are helpless it just means we are human but needing help and letting others lead your life are very different situations! I am fully in charge of me, myself and I, I will not let anyone else rule it or run it. I am the maker of my dreams and the catcher of the ones i hold dearly. I am the mother, the wife , the sister, the aunt, the daughter, the granddaughter and so forth i am me! I wont let anger, sadness be the forever ruler of who i am any more. I have always been a free spirit waiting to catch the shooting star way up in night sky. I am glad i am back at that point in my life. I am in love so much in love with my life, my husband and our goals. I cant wait to reach the new chapter in my life when i start school and work for a career to help us build our lives together. I cant wait for my kids to see us attack our biggest fear of failure and see nothing can stand in your way if you really work hard and know its worth working for! We all dream of success , goals, happiness and freedom, No one person ever said those things would come easy but, with hard work and persistence we can have whatever we set our hearts out to reach.. So dream, Dream big and strong and know that you can achieve whatever it is you truly want with the passion in life you put out! this is my days thoughts thus far and i keep replaying the plays our kids were putting on last night. It makes me smile to know they can be kids!